trisha.

Hello, hello. It's the last month of the school year. I am glad, but a bit anxious. In all honsety, I am not at all confident with my grades and I am so scared that my QPI would be so so extremely low. Boo. But, I'm trying real hard to focus on my studies. REALLY. It's just one more month, anyway. One LAST month. I can do this! HAHAHA.

My last Calculus long test was depressing. It was my lowest grade, and to think that I slept at 1:30 in the morning for that 7:30am test! TSK. It was the test I studied the hardest for. Damn it! HA. It's annoying that the test I had the highest score on was the one I didn't study for, and the test I get the lowest score on is the one I studied the hardest for! Ironic, isn't it? Maybe I should never study for a test ever again? :> TSk. I'm totally kidding! But, really, I'm still bitter about how things turned out. BLECH.

Yesterday was Valentine's Day. It was a normal day for me, the only difference was seeing a lot of people carrying roses around campus. I was supposed to go to my high school that day because the teachers had a program for charity, but because the tickets were sold out, I just hung out in school and went home after my classes. In the afternoon, my parents and I went to the Mango Farm where we met up with my brother, his fiance, and the pastor who will officiate their wedding on Sunday. My brother's fiance is Japanese, so a lot of Japanese people will be flying in tomorrow.. if they don't get scared because I think a rally was held earlier in Makati :)) Oh, my world will be invaded by the Japanese for the next two or three days. :|

Today my only class was Physics lab at 7:30am. HASSLE. I stayed in school til 6:30pm, though. We supported our friend, Isabelle, who sang at the ACTM event, XOXO: It's Never Too Late For Love! She was great! After she sang, we all left and went to Katipunan. We just hung out there til around 9:30. It was fun (: I love my friends!

Last Saturday, February 8, 2008, our English block went to the 12th Hot Air Balloon Fiesta: Weekend of Everything that Flies! In Clark, Pampanga. We had to be there by sun rise, so we met at Petron, Katipunan at around four in the morning. I arrived a bit late because it was hard for me to wake up at 3 in the morning - I slept late because it was my brother’s fiancé’s wedding shower the night before and we arrived the house past midnight already- and our driver also arrived our house late. When I got to the meeting area, most of my block mates were already there. We boarded the van and waited for one of our block mates to arrive. We left Katipunan at around 5 in the morning already. I slept the whole trip to and back from Pampanga because I was so tired. I think all of us in the van, except for the driver of course, slept. When we got to Clark, we could already see the long line of cars going to the fair. It was really cold and since I left my jacket at home, I had to bear the chilly air which felt like it was piercing through my skin. When we entered the fair, we saw some rides and booths, but we were excited for the hot air balloons so we went straight to that area. At that time, lots of kites of different shapes, colors, and sizes were being flown up in the sky. There were also paragliders who came falling out of nowhere up in the sky. It was truly a great experience for me because it was a really beautiful and unique event to attend. It is really a pity that we were not able to see the hot air balloons fly because the wind was too strong. They tried to fill the hot air balloons with air several times but unfortunately, they failed. We walked around the fair to check out what else is interesting there. We saw an exhibit of the pictures of the American bases in Clark. We also saw some rifles on display which people can take pictures with. There were also some planes on display there. We spent most of our time near the food stalls. At first, we were looking for a place to sit but there were too many people and the chairs weren’t enough so we just stood there. After a while, we got tired of standing so we just sat down on the grass and enjoyed the cool breeze. My block mates and I were able to talk and get to know each other better. I think more than the unique experience of going to that event, the thing that excited me more was the thought of being able to bond with my English block mates. I am not really close with them, but I think the field trip helped me get to know them a bit better. Although we weren’t able to see the hot air balloons, which was the supposed main event of the field trip, I still had a great time with my block mates.

Last Friday, my "foursome" barkada (Bibi, Nikki, Paolo, and I) got our haircut together! Paolo got his hair colored, his hair is now reddish brown. After that, we went to Pao's house to get ready for Isabelle's dinner (Happy birthday, IO!). The food at Isabelle's party was great! We were so full after! We just hugh out at her place for a while. Then, some of us went karaoke-ing at Promenade. I only stayed there for half an hour because I was picked up at 12 (Cinderella, much?) :)) But, I had fun, nonetheless. (: Sayang, I should've just hitched a ride home with my blockmate so I could've spent more time with them. I think they went pa to Cantina afterwards. Anyway, the day after, I went to youth. We planned for the summer camp. I'm in charge of finance :o I need to get money!! :O HAHA. Then, I met up with some of my highschool friends in Tomas Morato. We just had dinner then hung out at my place afterwards. My weekend was a blast! I was able to hang out with my college friends, high school friends, and church friends! (: Sometimes, I find it hard to balance friends, studies, and family, but I think I did a pretty good job balancing friends last week. (: I just didn't study because we have no classes today and well, all my other family memebers were also busy so it's okay. Hehe (:

*My brother's getting married in two weeks!
**My sis-in-law's giving birth in a month!
YAY. I'm excited!!

My first thought every morning is "What time is it?" So, when I woke up this morning, I was thinking of that. But, instead of finding my cellphone to check the time, I thought of the ln of time or the log of time or the derivative of time. I was thinking for like 5 minutes until I realized that I should just look at my phone. OMG. Calculus is driving me crazy! log time, WTH?!

I should never do my calculus homework right before I sleep ever again. That was just plain scary.

It's the last stretch for this year. I'm really getting tired and lazy, but I still have 2 long tests and projects to finish. AH. HASSLE. I have to try my best to focus and not let the thought of the break get into me. AAHHH. I can't believe it's almost Christmas. I don't feel the Christmas spirit yet, even though we've already had a Christmas party earlier. HAHA :) K., I'm cramming all my homework! AAAHHHH. This is soo bad. HAHA.

Earlier, we had a Christmas cantata in church. It was really pretty. The stage was pretty and all the singers were dressed pretty. :) HAHA. Yeah, so it was pretty. I had a great time praising and worshipping God. =D HAHA. After that, we went to my grandparents' house for our Christmas party. There were lots of people there, I didn't even know some of them. Yeah. But, it was nice to meet my other relatives. =D The party ended at around 4:30 then my mom, brother and I went to the couturier. My mom got mad at the people there because the designer of my dress wasn't there and they did something wrong with my dress. Anyway, mom said my brother who's getting married in Feb should rethink if he's going to the same couturier for his wedding because she said they're "unprofessional". K., yeah. So that was my day. Now, I have to go outside because my family's waiting for me. We're having a "dessert buffet". YUUUM. =D

Hmm. I don't know what to write.. It's been a long time since I last updated this thing.. 


So, what's up?? What's up?? 


1. It's already the second semester!! YAY. Same teachers for English and Lit. I have table tennis for PE. I have Math everyday, 7:30am every Tuesdays and Thursdays, which sucks. And I have Physics as my NatSci. 


2. My sister-in-law's pregnant! They're having a baby boy.. and I think they're naming him Phoenix.. 


3. My other brother's getting married next February to his Japanese girlfriend.. yeah.. 


4. I'm turning 18 in 26 days!! :D 

This week will be a VERY stressful week. My brother will be getting married on Friday!!! Which means that I cannot have any tests, quizzes, reports, presentations, and whatnot on that day. Oh God, may my teachers work with me here.

I've been sleeping really late for the past few days, if not weeks. Oh my pimples!!
My gown for the wedding isn't ready yet. :| I am sooo dead.

I'm really excited for this Friday. :-)He's my first sibbling to get married.. but my other brother will follow next year.. February, I think. Eh whatever, MY BROTHER IS GETTING MARRIED IN 4 DAYYYYSSSS.!! Ehehehe. Okay, I'll stop now.

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DREAM JOURNAL:
I dreamt that there was this guy who was driving and he had a baby on his lap. I helped him and took the baby from him. I went with him to his place and took care of the baby. Then, my brother came and gave me my i-pod. Apparently, he got it fixed (but my i-pod's still broken in real life). I listened to my i-pod while still taking care of the baby. Then I woke up. .. Yeah.. weird.. I have no idea what that dream meant..

I woke up from a stranger-than-usual dream today, which was followed by a really baaad day. :|

My blockmate, Alysa and I got the microphones, then we started walking the long path while singing. When we arrived the covered place, we saw Matteo Guidicelli and i gave him a high five. HAHA. So anyway, Alysa and I went to our places, then we saw our other blockmate, Isabelle. She was holding a picture of a tiger and sticking fur to it. We asked her what it's for and she didn't really know. So, we asked the person next to her and he said it was for ANCHOR BUTTER. So, we realized that we were doing a commercial for ANCHOR BUTTER! :)) Then, Isabelle pointed to us her crush.. He was wearing a blue shirt and was sitting beside our blockmate, Maki. I don't remember his face, I just remember that he's suuuuuper white. After that, we heard people cheering and clapping their hands and when we looked at the other side of the room, we saw Kirk Long kissing this American girl. AHAHAH. Then after they kissed, he said something to her, then she said something back, then they started shouting and jumping around. They looked sooo happy and since I was all-knowing, I know that he proposed to her. After that, I saw my high school friend, tata. She was wearing a shirt that had the GMA network logo on it.. Someone was interviewing her on how her life was when she studied in Europe.. My dream ended there..

I usually try to interpret my dreams, but this one's really hard to interpret. the events in my dream weren't really connected with each other, except that it all happened in one place.. I liked my dream, though. I was happy all throughout. :) It was a fun dream, I want to have more dreams like these, rather than getting lost or getting chased by a killer in my dream..

On other news, I had a really bad day today. We had lab early in the morning and we had to go to Meron pond. Ew. It was really humid. Ew. After that we had to look at our water samples using the microscope.. It was really boring, until we saw this really cool alien-shaped organism, but we saw that after the bell rang so we had to go. Boo. I brought my camera today, but it was low-batt, so it was useless. It pissed me off. I cut english because I wasn't feeling well. I was supposed to go to Lit, but we had a free cut. Good thing I went to the lib with Elaine and checked my email there, so I saw that apparently our Lit teacher emailed us that we were getting a free cut and that we had a homework to be submitted by 5pm. I spent my break doing it.. that sucks. I had to do it quickly because I had fil at 12:30 (our teacher wasn't there, but we had a seatwork) and I asked my brother to fetch me at 1:30. After submitting it, I went to the caf and when I arrived they all stood up to go to Fil. :| So we did our seatwork on "Og Uhog". That was funny :)) But, yeah, I guess it was too humid a day to be enthusiastic and do our work well. We had a really sabaw seatwork. Ohwell.. Then, I went home. Oh, how I love my house. I feel much muuuch better now :)

I was looking at my planner earlier. I don't like next week. Actually, today is the start of my bad days. I already know it. :| Tomorrow I have a "photoshoot" with my blockmates for our magazine project, then I have to go somewhere after. Then, I'll have to do my Fil paper over the weekend. It's due on Monday. And on Monday, we also have our Lit Long test.. Then, on Wednesday I have to pass my ES Lab paper. Then, on friday another Es lab paper is due. :| Poo.

I had a wierd dream last night. I was going home with my friend and we got lost and it took me a while before I realized that we were already near my house. Then, I was going home again with another friend, and it was kinda the same, we also got lost. We weren't able to reach home though because we stopped at some place and another friend came and we talked about another friend's anklet. Then, our friend found a necklace there and he was giving it to us, but we didn't want it because we wanted our other friend's anklet. Then, I woke up.

My dream reminded me of the girl's dream in "The Virgin". She dreamt several times that she couldn't find her way home. I think it probably reflects me right now. I've been pretty confused lately. It's depressing. Also, maybe the friend's anklet thing has something to do with the things I want but cannot have. ..

Everyone's doing it, and here's my piece to share. ;)

List 20 things you want to say to certain people but you know you never will. Don't say who they are.

1. I'm glad we're friends. Really. :) I never thought we'd be friends. I thought you were a snob and a brat. But, you are so not. It's amazing how much we are so different and alike at the same time. I love you to bits! I'm always here for you, love. <3

2. I'm glad we're friends again. Really. :) It must have been fate. Everything just fell into the right place at the right time. I missed you. I'm glad I get to spend time with you again. I love you forever and FRIENDS FOREVER.

3. I've known you since forever. I never thought that I'd get affected by your actions that way, though. But, I AM HAPPY FOR YOU. For BOTH of you. :)

4. I'm not sure why I'm reacting this way, I guess I was disappointed with you.. Err. I knew you weren't gonna last that long, but I didn't expect you to end that way. And I don't like your new friends. I know them. Although, I know you do always hang with those kind of people. But, you must know, they are not good for you.

5. I miss you so so much. I'm so excited to see you this Saturday! I knew it, he sucks. I know you know he sucks. LEAVE HIM!!! I don't know why you take all his crticism after all the pain he's caused you. And so, I say it again, LEAVE HIM!!!

6. You are soooo cute. OMG. I love you to infinity! I swear! I'm glad we get along so well. And I'm glad I'm able to tell you things I can't get myself to tell my other friends. But, I am still not willing to share HIM with you. AHAHAHA. You can have the OTHER ONE. ;)

7. Lumalandi kang bata ka. Tsktsk!

8. Isa ka pa. AHAHAHA :))

9. Most of the time you annoy me. But, I love you nonetheless. Thank you for always being there for me. And sorry for the times I've been bratty and cranky. :)

10. Thanks for talking sense into me earlier. Thank you also for always helping me out. You've always been good to me. THANK YOU. I will miss you when you leave. REALLY, I will. :)

11. I'm sorry that he's a fool. And I'm sorry about what he did to you. I hope this doesn't strain our friendship. :) And I hope you get over the fool soon. If he doesn't value you, then he's so not worth it.

12. I hope you change your mind. He is not all that bad.

13. You really hurt me, but you don't know that. But, I'm over it now. I hope she doesn't hurt you. I hope everything turns out right. :) Take care, FRIEND. :)

14. Stay away from him. Not because I like him, because I actually DON'T. But, becasue you guys are my friends and I don't like it when people gossip about you. I don't like it that people ask me about it. I know there aren't any bad intentions, but if you know what's good for you, you will stay away from him. :) Btw, I really treasure our friendship and ILOVETHEE.<3

15. I'm so sorry I caused so much hassle today. BUT, I DO NOT NEED THEM ANYMORE!! Sorry that all your hard work will be put to waste. Really, I am soo sorry!

16. Because of you, I realized that dreams do come true. Thankyou, FRIEND. :)

17. And because I realized that dreams do come true, I dream of YOU. AHAHAHA. kidding. I love you. Everyone does. :) Seriously ,though, you are so close to perfect, it gets annoying at times. But, I still love you. :) AHAHAHA.

18. I admire you. You are a strong person. You've had such a huge impact on my life, there are times when I'm scared of disappointing you. I hope I don't cause you any pains. Thank you for loving me. I love you very much!

19. I hope we become better friends. :) I really do. I think you're a really nice person, although I always bash you and call you names. But, you know I'm just playing with you. See you tomorrow. :)

20. I'm sure you will read this and won't even know that it's you. I hope you don't judge me with the things I've written in my blog, I mean, it is MY blog. The things I write here could be true or not, so don't assume things. Thank you.

Whew. That was long. I didn't think I'd take it seriously, but after a few shout-outs, it just all came out. :) It's nice to have let the things I've wanted to say to some people out. I'm not sure if they're gonna read them, but atleast they're out. :)

Last night I dreamed I was helping some all-girls tribe fight against a bad guy. Really weird. For the setting and costume, think APOCALYPTO (excpet for me and Sarah). Yeah, Sarah was there, she was like the "karate kid". There was a girl named Kaia and she had a daughter, they had super powers, awesome. I didn't have any special powers and stuff, loser. Sarah was doing flying kicks and was all over the place. The bad guy was some immortal dude. We tried shooting him, but he wouldn't die. Then he captured all of us and tied us together. Danna was also there. I remember the bad guy making her dance. Funny. Then, the bad guy called my name. I got really scared, he called me several times, then I woke up. HAHA Turns out my dad was waking me up and he was the one calling my name.

It was a really weird dream. But, as I was thinking about it, I figured it must've been because I was playing Virtual Villagers before I slept. It was the first time I played, it's really interesting. Too bad our computer crashed a while ago, they probably have to reformat the computer. AWW. Goodbye, my villagers! Sayang, I was excited pa naman to check what happened na to them..

Speaking of the computer crashing incident.. I HAVE TO VENT.
AHHHH. I wanted to cry earlier!
I spent the whole afternoon yesterday doing my homework (and watching the Ateneo-UST game, awww we lost :(), I was thinking of emailing my homework to myself just because, but I didn't because I was lazy. So my files are in that computer then it crashes today. So, I had to do everything from scratch because the computer won't get fixed until tomorrow and I need to submit my homework tomorrow. Before I found out that the computer crashed, I was thinking of watching a movie with my brother, but now I spent the whole afternoon doing my homewrok again. AHH. Frustrating!

Last night, I was thinking of blogging because life sucked, but I couldn't because.. well, life sucked.

Today, life doesn't suck as much anymore, but it still sucks. But, I guess, everyone's lives suck, it just depends on how you see it and how you work for your life not to suck.

I'm not sure if what I wrote makes sense to you, but it does to me. HAHAHA (:

Today sucks because I'm doing my Fil paper. AHH. Nosebleed. I'm suppossed to go out today, but because of several unfortunate things, such as this stewpid Fil paper, I can't. But, I should really see this as a good thing or I'd end up crying myself to sleep again later on at night. Ew. Shall not happen again.

So, to give me back my good vibes, I should think happy thoughts. Hmm.. Happy thoughts..
1. I'm not going out today, but I will tomorrow! (hopefully)
2. I'd be done with my Fil paper by tonight, which means I no longer have to think about it EVER again.
3. Krispy Kreme. Yumyum.
4. Chatting with Harly. *cough* Tucker is MINE. <3
5. No classes for 2 Mondays! August 20 & 27. Thank you madame president. (:

Doesn't seem much, but listing good things makes me feel a whole lot better. YAY.

Ooooh, I drove again! This time not just a couple of blocks away from home. I actually drove in EDSA. Awesome!! :)) 


I drove ALL THE WAY from church, which is near Valle Verde Country Club and Ultra. Yaaay. Half of the time I was driving, I was shouting "We're gonna die! We're gonna die!". Half of the time, my brother was shouting "Gas! Gas!" or "Brakes! Brakes!" Funneh. 


YAY. We didn't get into a car accident. ThankYouGod. 


Anyway, last week was WOAH! Like, no teevee, YM conferences til past midnight, sleeping waaay past midnight, skipping meals, being in school til 8, etcetcetc. I don't remember the last time I had such a stressful week. Ugh. Pressure! 

Last week was also the Ateneo-La Salle game. I watched it at home with one of my blockmates. We were supposed to be more, but the others decided to watch in Araneta, those ditchers! Nikki and I kept screaming the whole game. It was a great game! My La Sallian brothers kept on calling and texting me during the game telling me to update them.  But, all I could say was "AAAAAH!" I did a bad job updating them, but who cares, they still know what happened in the end :)) YAY. GO ATENEO!

BOO. I still have to do my Fil paper on Litisang Bilog ng Caucasus. Ew. I don't really get the play. Gawd, I so need help. :| Good thing only have 2 classes tomorrow, I might cut Intact though. AND NO CLASSES ON TUESDAY! HORRAH!

Yaaay. Congratulate me! I remembered my dream! REMEMBERED. I wrote it down before I left for school, now there's just a vague memory. Good thing I wrote it down earlier. HORRAH. My first dream remembered in a long while. :-)

So, here it goes..

It was my 7 year-old cousin, Hannah's birthday. We were in a very, very big and gloomy house in Baguio and she invited 4 friends over. Two of her friends already arrived and went straight to the second floor. Hannah and I opened the door for her two other friends and led them to the kiddie pool area. We passed by a super big pool, then went in a room, then entered another room, then we arrived the kiddie pool area! It was weird, there was a real kiddie pool, but it wasn't filled with water, and there was an inflatable pool which was filled only less than half. The kids changed to their swimsuits, got their floaters, and swam. By that time, my 24 year-old brother arrived, and together, we watched Hannah and her friends (a boy and a girl) swim. At one point, they were shouting like crazy, so we checked out what they were playing. we went near them, then the setting changed. We were like in a mangrove or swamp place, they were swimming there and it became really dark. My uncle, Hannah's dad was there and he was scaring the kids. Ah, that's why they were shouting their lungs out!     THE END. :-)

What a weird, lame dream. But, that was my dream. XD

Weird, the house had to be in Baguio pa talaga. :)) And imagine them kids swimming in a pool which was only filled a foot. HAHAHA. :))

Guess who drove all the way home today?!?!
ME, ME, I DID!!
BWAHAHA.
 
Okay, not ALL the way from Ateneo. Not even from National.
My brother and I switched places when we were like ten blocks away from our house. HAHAHA.

He's complaining that I drive too slow. HA! I'm just careful!
SAFETY FIRST!!

When we got home, we traded places again because it's hard to park here. The first time I tried getting the car out of our house, I almost hit my uncle's car. :)) I accidentally stepped on the gas instead of the brakes. Good thing I was able to steer away from his car.

It's been like two months since I last drove before today. And it was in the province. And there were no cars. HAHAHA :))
There weren't too much cars when I was driving awhile ago too. But I was still super scared. HAHAHA. loser.

I wonder when I'll be able to drive again.. hmm. I wanna drive, but I'm too scared!! Boooo.

I think I need another drastic change in my life. I've been in college for only over a month, and I'm already getting tired of it and homework is starting to pile up.

College is overrated. Or maybe I was just expecting so much. Probably because I thought I would drive to school like my brothers did. I could, but I'm scared I might bump another car, or worse a person. And it's a hassle to find parking space! Boo. I worked so hard to get a license and I end up not using them! What a waste!!

I kind of miss high school already. I miss the slow pacing of things. I feel so pressured right now because I feel like so much stuff is being squeezed into so little time. Someone, give me my chill pill.

My parents had dinner with their high school friends here last night. It's amazing how they are still able to keep in touch with one another! They've graduated from high school eons ago, in yet they still get to see each other. Funny, I only graduated last March, but I haven't seen my friends in a really long time! Thank God for debuts for they bring us together!

I want something to excite me! God, give me something new!